Hey there .netters,

So, some of you may remember my not-so-graceful goodbye thread as the former @ToxicPastePurpleWaste (yes it's intentionally backwards, but not down the numberline). I have since returned with a new identity that is the name of my etree account via the incredible one time user name change feature (of which I understand and agreed to the rules). I was hoping to just sneak back in unnoticed and join in the game again, but @Chilly blew up my spot.

I would like to offer my sincerest apologies to anyone I offended/pissed off/was an asshole towards in my previous .net existence. As the thread title states, I AM an asshole (but it's something I'm working on). I allowed some members to get under my skin before, and it affected the way I felt about this community and thus my actions toward it. I didn't handle things as well as I should have, but I have come to the realization that maybe I just had too high of expectations.

Allow me to explain what I mean by that...

Since I got into Phish ( ~late spring 2007) and that interest grew into love and, quite frankly, obsession, I have been unable to find others that share that love (and/or obsession) as much as I do with the sole exception being in this forum. When I discovered this place, I suppose I expected everyone to be so much like myself that I didn't allow room for anything less. Then, when I found some utter negativity, "it [made] me feel sad". I got too wrapped up in the minority of folks who brought this negativity in and allowed it to taint my experience sharing in the .net groove and pull myself into that negativity. This is, obviously, not what I wanted, so I finally got fed up and just stopped posting.

Then I made this incredible asshole of a thread to say goodbye for good to .net

Since then, though, I still haven't been able to find people that share the intensity of my love for Phish, and I have craved that communion constantly. That is why I returned. I decided to change my name in hopes that I would be able to save face and not have to do this (cowardly, I know, another thing I'm working on). I just can't get away from this place because I feel like if there's anyone that could ever understand me, it's this community, and I really need a place to share my love for this band that has brought me so many incredible things in such a short period of time (though it is almost a quarter of my life now, which is strange to think about).

So, I guess what I'm saying is

I love Phish.

I love you.

Please forgive and accept me as your own because honestly, I just can't keep all the things Phish does for me to myself.

TL;DR
GTFO NOOB

YADDA YADDA YADDA

TL dr

Why did you change your name? You do realize that it's backwards?

::hope I didn't get under your skin::
::ok I read half::

Wait, you left?

@SpiritWolf said:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ee925OTFBCA

LOL. That really is. Is that from Intervention or something?

@jerryguscia I'm still looking for that damn +10 button. Well said. Thanks dude.

but.... you're NOT an asshole!

and seriously 2012 is my favorite era of Phish I think. I really prefer their style of jamming now, and the best part is, I'm actually present for it. We get to experience this shit first hand. (something I couldnt do for 1.0 or 2.0)

Someone once said something to me that resonated...

think of every single think you post to the internet as if it was being published in a national newspaper. Tweets, forum posts, Facebook...everything.

You're less likely to say something that you'll regret.

I missed this whole thing though so I don't really care. It's all goooooood OP

Hey, welcome back.

Not that I found you to be one but this the thread name begs for this.

I'm an asshole too. You have be careful about it around here though. Go to PT for that. That's what i do.

i, for one, love passionate people...as i've described in my posts about auds, especially in this interwonky soup we live in now, one needs to push the "mental dolby" button liberally:

so toss away stuff you won't need in the end
but keep what's important - and know who's your friend

besides, opinions are like assholes -- everyone's got one, and everyone thinks everyone else's stinks

@jerryguscia said:

First off, I think that McKayla Maroney chick is cute, but damn, her eyes are dim...they're like how Quinn described a shark's eyes.